i skipped school for the commando assessment today. not bad lah, but wasted a lot of time there by sitting around and waiting. let's wait and see whether i'll receive the letter accepting me. which promises me army intake in january. which promises me ONLY ONE FUCKING MONTH OF FREEDOM AFTER ALEVELS.

i have mixed feelings now. i dunno if i really wanna be a commando now. but there's nothing i can do about it. the decision is up to them now, not me, because i've already gone for the check-up, test and interview. and i think i gave them a rather good impression and the person interviewing me was rather impressed.

i dunno lah. if the intake is in april or something, i'll definitely have no regrets. but it's in january! provided that i'm selected lah.
i just dont have as much enthusiasm now.

and i realised it's because of megan.
i realised that to me, love is more important than my dreams and goals.
i've always wanted to be a commando but now it seems so much less important to me. i really dont mind being a clerk just to spend more time with megan.
but i'll never become a clerk unless i break a few bones from now till intake!
i hardly get to go out with megan cos her mum is very strict. so we'll only be able to go out freely after alevels.
but one fucking month after alevels and i'll be in army IF i'm in commandos. sexy lah nabei