when love makes you selfless and selfish at the same time. it does you know.

i'm neutral about my results. i did okay, better than what people might expect from my prelims. but i'm sad. not because of results lah, i already said i feel nothing about it.
i'm upset because fatgirl's upset. i really cant bear to see her sad.

even if i get lousy shitty grades, i won't care much as long as fatgirl's happy.

i thinki'm retarded.


then sometimes i get selfish. because i'm so possessive, i'm scared that she'll go overseas one day. although honestly, i dont want her to go, who am i to stop her. ultimately, i will still let go cos that's what she wants.

i'm mad.

army has just been an ass. and it will continue being an ass without doubt. just kick me out of commando! i wanna be a clerk.

i have lost all motivation and passion for national service. why must there be soldiers? why must there be war? WORLD PEACE WOOOOHOOO FTW

i have my alevels results. dunno where to go now. and i'm sleepyyyyy