when love makes you selfless and selfish at the same time. it does you know.

i'm neutral about my results. i did okay, better than what people might expect from my prelims. but i'm sad. not because of results lah, i already said i feel nothing about it.
i'm upset because fatgirl's upset. i really cant bear to see her sad.

even if i get lousy shitty grades, i won't care much as long as fatgirl's happy.

i thinki'm retarded.


then sometimes i get selfish. because i'm so possessive, i'm scared that she'll go overseas one day. although honestly, i dont want her to go, who am i to stop her. ultimately, i will still let go cos that's what she wants.

i'm mad.